About me

I would like to describe to you my life experiences so far in a few words.

The long and short journeys of my valleys of fear and despair towards joy and absolute trust in God, trust in the bigger picture, the cosmos, the absolute, the all-one.

This would have been a horror for me some time ago. Self-doubt would have stopped me. What do you actually think you are! To take yourself so seriously and assume that your life & experiences might be of interest to others.

Now I know from the bottom of my heart that these are all the tormenting, self-destructive thoughts and energies that are not our true being. This 'You are not good enough and worthless' litany comes from our thinking mind, the mind. This is fed by our old patterns, thoughts, fears, feelings of guilt and powerlessness from childhood, school, the example of our parents, that Collective of influences of our current society, our ancestral line and much more.

I was able to experience that we as souls have given ourselves our own mission, what we want to resolve in this human life. What we want to grow from. We chose where geographically and with which parents and in which environment we would grow up.

And that's where it begins. As a teenager, I would have slapped everyone who would have told me that it was I who chose this climate of fear, insecurity, abuse and alcohol. Definitely not!

I grew up in Bern as an illegitimate child. Simplest conditions. I don't know my biological father. He was Italian. The love of my mother's life. fling. He sees me as a newly born child. My mother sends him away and closes the front door in his face. I grow up as the eldest, with two half-sisters. My social father is an alcoholic. Can't cope with life. Unemployed.

I grew up partly with my grandfather. I'm often alone. Mother works. I look at my sisters, stepfather drunk. Sells our beloved dog, runs around with clubs. Comes home beaten up and toothless in the middle of the night. I clean the blood away. As a 5 year old.

I learn quickly & effortlessly. Read books until my eyes burn. My home. I have a third man to visit as my father. Until my mother finally admits to me that she sent my biological father away.

Just a big mess. What counts? What is truth. Who am I.

As a child, I look into my eyes and ask myself: who is looking at me?

My sisters often think about suicide. I just unconsciously. Suddenly, unexpectedly, you run into the street in front of a car. Inexplicable. We were a few first graders and marveled at the shop window with the great bikes on the way home. I turn around and jump off. Just like that. The car drives down the stairs into a house on the opposite side. Sheet metal damage. The woman gets out, runs towards me and I think ouch. The woman hugs me and says: “It’s never going to bother me.” No further consequences. No visit home. Just that hug. Today I know that was my guardian angel. I see him and thank him from the bottom of my heart. Unconsciously, it was too much of a challenge for me to learn what I – my soul – had set out to do.

School was my great refuge. I wanted to know, know, know. School holidays were anathema to me. Especially the summer holidays. Way too long. I longed for my desk. Wädu the old neighbor's dog came to us. Finally! He was my best friend. I found comfort & warmth in his basket. I often lay with him. When he dies, my world collapses. Only a few years ago, when I was already an adult, did I have the strength to mourn him. Deep valley. I wasn't aware of it. Everything in its time.

My motto was to get away as quickly as possible. I left home at the age of 17. I was studying to be a nurse with the idea of ​​disappearing abroad as quickly as possible. I only work in hospitals for a short time. And always this great longing, this calling

Travel a total of one year through India & Nepal. 'Accidentally' meet Osho and Krishna Murti on the way.

Start doing radio, start writing. Study Media & Communication Studies. Become a TV journalist. for 20 years. Design and create different formats and programs together with others. First women's magazine, new science magazine. I'm a presenter, a domestic correspondent, I'm going to be a producer.

And always this great longing, this calling

Become a mother. Wonderful daughter. My path to great liberation begins. Separation from my then partner. Burnout, depression. I haven't been able to function in so-called society for six months. Almost unbearable physical pain. A spinning metal eel with spikes from my sternum straight through my heart. I think I'm going crazy. No, you're not going crazy! it sounds incessantly within me. You are a mother, you survive this and look to your daughter. You are not 'sick'. You search. Refuse to go to a clinic. Start psychotherapy. Weekly for 7 years. Commuting from Bern to Zurich starts again. Picking up the child from daycare, cooking, a career because the economic system cannot allow the mother to collapse again. And it crashes...

Always this great longing and calling

I am starting 4 years of yoga training. Immerse yourself in yoga philosophy, this ancient knowledge about the soul and its calls...

And another burnout. Shorter this time.

Training to become a Gestalt therapist begins in Berlin

I quit the TV job without knowing what's next.

The sound finds me. Music and dance is my consolation when it calls and hurts again.

I am starting my training to become a sound therapist.

Shortly afterwards - out of the blue - an offer comes from 2 NGOs to act as project managers for the production of fair cell phones and computers.

My earnings are drastically reduced. I'm moving after 20 years of co-op living. Get sick.

I am rediscovering my energetic healing power from previous lives.

The longing and calling remains. I am quitting the NGO position. Start working in the Innovation Village. Become independent.

This time Lyme disease, Epstein Barr virus & electrosmog in my new place of residence almost make me give up. Conventional medicine says it doesn't know these symptoms. I speak a different language. Have to leave the house, the electrical currents are too strong. I'm on the road again for six months. Cannot do regular work. Be trained by the 'cosmic family'. Call it 'online mystery school'.. Friends take me in.

I will be healthy, whole.

The calling and longing is over.

I have been working completely independently since 2019.

I have finally given up my inner resistance to my spirituality.

Spirit over Mind. Heart over head.

And I know that all of these experiences in my life so far are in the past.

They no longer have any meaning in the NOW. They only have the power over me that I give to the whole thing with my thoughts.

I am here to recognize this - to understand the origin of thoughts and feelings.

To stand there with all my courage – to say YES to my true nature. Growing is a constant process. There is no end.

We are light and sound. When we leave this earth, our cosmic family recognizes us by our soul sound. How beautiful.

I bow to my mother & my unknown father in this life.

I bow to my stepfathers

I bow to my daughter

I bow to my grandfather, my sisters & all my partners & my friends.

I bow to Mother Earth & Father Sky

I would like to thank my cosmic family

I would like to thank Mooji with joy for allowing me to meet him.

I would like to thank you & all the people, animals, plants that I meet every day & are my teachers.

Thank you life.

Life is so much kinder & wiser than your mind imagines.

Trust and be still.

Mooji